When i wake up in the morning, her name is in my mind. and when I gO to school, I always think of her. When I enter the classroom, she is the first girl I always see. It seems like that the rest are nothing and the only visible to me is her beautiful face. I can't take my eyes away from her. I think we're destined to be in the same room. I sometimes stay away from my group just to stare at her. I don't know what's in her that i can't stop thinking of her.
We've been classmates for almost 2 years. But this year's different. I feel different towards her. I don't remember when it started. I just know that I'm still doing the same thing up to now.
Days gone by and people caught me staring at her. teases and funs started. Then she was amazed. I don't know how to react this time, for my greatest secret was revealed. Everywhere I go, she's always there or there is something that can make me remember her. Everything i say, it connects to her. And then I started to feel conscious. We're not the same people who talked and laughed together with the class before. now, I am away from her because i can't managed to go close to her.
I'm aware that she has so many friends to tell to about her secrets. And her friends know what I feel towards her. so i also assume that she knows about it. It's so hard to be close to her when i know that she is holding a great responsibility in class and that she is always busy everytime. I've been through this before, but this time, it's more comlicated. It's complicated because almost everybody in the campus know about the issue.
What will I do to stop this feeling when I know that it would not be effective? People try to tell me that we should talk about the issue and tell each other what we felt inside our hearts. We had talked so many times but the words inside my heart won't come out right. It's like i'm not ready to face her. I'm not ready to face the truth that it's too late. It's too late to say she is always my favorite classmate. But it's not too late to bring back the friendship we had before and the meomories we shared together when the time I didn't feel like this way.
Can you tell me what will i do next? Shall I continue feeling this way or shall I give up this feeling? I know there's chance between the two of us but there will be people hurt. I can't sacrifice her for everybody. I also can't sacrifice everybody for her. I don't think i can choose between the two. I just know exactly what I really feel. It's like i'm trapped and imprisoned. It's like I was exiled and was thrown away because of love, because of FORBIDDEN LOVE.
We've been classmates for almost 2 years. But this year's different. I feel different towards her. I don't remember when it started. I just know that I'm still doing the same thing up to now.
Days gone by and people caught me staring at her. teases and funs started. Then she was amazed. I don't know how to react this time, for my greatest secret was revealed. Everywhere I go, she's always there or there is something that can make me remember her. Everything i say, it connects to her. And then I started to feel conscious. We're not the same people who talked and laughed together with the class before. now, I am away from her because i can't managed to go close to her.
I'm aware that she has so many friends to tell to about her secrets. And her friends know what I feel towards her. so i also assume that she knows about it. It's so hard to be close to her when i know that she is holding a great responsibility in class and that she is always busy everytime. I've been through this before, but this time, it's more comlicated. It's complicated because almost everybody in the campus know about the issue.
What will I do to stop this feeling when I know that it would not be effective? People try to tell me that we should talk about the issue and tell each other what we felt inside our hearts. We had talked so many times but the words inside my heart won't come out right. It's like i'm not ready to face her. I'm not ready to face the truth that it's too late. It's too late to say she is always my favorite classmate. But it's not too late to bring back the friendship we had before and the meomories we shared together when the time I didn't feel like this way.
Can you tell me what will i do next? Shall I continue feeling this way or shall I give up this feeling? I know there's chance between the two of us but there will be people hurt. I can't sacrifice her for everybody. I also can't sacrifice everybody for her. I don't think i can choose between the two. I just know exactly what I really feel. It's like i'm trapped and imprisoned. It's like I was exiled and was thrown away because of love, because of FORBIDDEN LOVE.
2 comments:
just gather the guts to talk to her. it's the only thing that's gonna work. =) kibaw ko kinsa! heheheh..
as what i have known, you have already talked about it yet things still didn't work out..
don't worry..
i don't think she really closed her doors..
i don't think she's that kind of person..
she may feel bad but not the extent that really hate the whole you..
as i what i have understood in your post, you laughed and talked which probably meant that she can't forget what you have both gone together despite what happened.
try thinking things over again and once you have fixed your mind, talk to her.
'til here.tc.
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